I don't want to get up in the morning

I feel so lucky or blessed to live this life of mine that I can't really complain about things. I hear my self complain and I stop and say "Well remember how it used to be?"
Then I hear my kids say "Ugh I do not want to get up." I do realize it's just an expression, but still I want to tell them "This is the good life."

I don't want to work anymore either. Truth. I want to stay home and be a house keeper. Never thought I would say that. Ugh! I love my work as a Massage Therapist. I more so love my work as a Mentor. But it's easy to just stay home. My point is, once we get going in our day, we have focus, a schedule and more of the ability to get things done. If you had no outside schedule to focus you, would you be productive? Enjoy what life you have here and now. We have such little time on this planet. Even when I am at the school helping the kids in the lunch room. I see my part in their young lives. If I smile they smile too. If I am grouchy, they look away, to avoid the feeling. So I try to smile and say hello to every child. When I am at Sense-Abilities practicing Massage, I smile as much as possible. I is a place of unwinding, of relaxation and peace. I have learned that life can be a lot worse. Each day I wake up, is a new chance to make a better life. Especially if I have someone who is making an effort to smile at me. Even though they, most likely, did not want to get up. By not taking the Easy way out, I have a rich full life. By not taking the Easy way out, I have people I talk with and friends at work to chat with. I have clients who also are a pleasure to converse with. They leave the spa feeling good and that makes me feel good. Life is hard sometimes. But mostly it's a good life.

Be grateful for every bill, every morning, and every penny. It is a new opportunity each time you see them.

Suz

when do we say no?

I have recently read that it is good karma to be generous. I do believe it is so. After all "you attract that which you are" (Dr. Wayne Dyer). But, when it comes to children, when do you say no? If we want to keep the good vibes going in our personal lives we often show or generosity by giving money. But do we do this with our children? Regardless of economic times, indulging our children may not be good. A person needs to be shown how to do for themselves. We teach our children by example more than by giving them everything they ask for. If they see us giving to others they will do the same and most likely not expect you to do the same for them. I am generous with what I have and that is because I enjoy seeing other people happy. I love watching their faces light up when I do something or give something to someone. My kids are the same way. They give to their friends and family for the sheer pleasure of it. Do they ask me for everything under the sun? Yes. Do I indulge them all the time? No. This will not teach them how much I value them. I do celebrate good deeds with something they may need or want. They say "but I need money and its too hard for me to earn any." I encourage patience, saving their allowance, and not over spending. I do celebrate holidays and birthdays as a time to indulge them and make them feel special within my ability to do so. Rather I indulge them with my time, attention, and love. Sometimes I sit here for hours doing nothing but hanging around wondering if they even know I am here. But at the most odd times they want to talk. It comes as sudden as the wind and I am right there when they need me.

Moments are remembered my days. Indulgence in things is not needed. Give time, effort and humor. Your family will love you all the more and you will feel good too. My kids love the power they feel when they see their money grow. They have pride doing it themselves and that is just as import then just giving it to them.

Bless this day.

Suz

Sunshine

Today is a good day so far. I am happy and feeling free to enjoy life. I have decided to paint today. Sprucing up my home makes me happy. I like the feeling of freshening up when spring comes. I renew and the Earth renews this time of year. My garden will change too. I have some plans for new flowers and more herbs for medicine.

I miss my Daughter and my Son. When I divorced their Father I thought they would be with me more. But I set it up as shared custody so they would have the best of both parents. We live in the same town to make it easy on my kids. Its been hard for me since they have grown up to not have their company at home here. My Son is the oldest and is off with his friends having fun and my Daughter is still a young teen and she is wanting the same rights as her older brother. So I have my hands full to say the least. I hope we will be close as the years roll by. I love family in my life and in my house. I want to cook large dinners and eat and drink while chatting about life and things. Unfortunately I never got the big family and closeness I wanted. However, I do have great love from the small family I seldom see. Maybe that's better over all. Sometimes family members get in their own way. I suppose I would be complaining about not having any privacy if I had them here all the time.

I feel happy for what I have. I don't want to think about what I don't have. I am grateful for my health, and my life. I hope to make it richer in every way.